As I’m laying in bed this morning, watching my precious babies sleep, I don’t want to wake them and get them ready for school. What I would give to keep them home with me forever! I love them! They are everything to me!
Sure, I could homeschool them (well, my husband says no, but I could) but then, is that really fair to them? They like school! They love going and spending the day with their friends. Should I take that away, just because I’m selfish and crave more time with them?
My son is 9! Nine! He has grown so fast, and I am so thankful that he still loves to hold my hand or snuggle with me on the couch, but it breaks my heart that one day it won’t be this way anymore. So I want to soak it all in now while I can.
My baby girl is 5! She started kindergarten this year. Which has been extremely difficult for the both of us. She’s my girl, the one who’s been here with me ever single day for the last 5 years. I don’t even like to go to the grocery store now when she’s at school, because I see moms with little ones and it breaks my heart because that stage of my life is over now.
I became I stay at home mom when I was 5 months pregnant with my son. I can honestly say, I have loved every minute! I am so thankful that I have had this time to be home with them! It’s irreplaceable in my opinion, this time is something that I will always cherish. I have savored it, knowing that one day it won’t be this way.
I just want to be the best mom I can possibly be! I am pretty hard on myself, and I worry a lot! Sometimes I get really focused on being a prefect mom but I know that I am far from perfect. Do I play with them enough, do they know how much I love them, should I have gone back to work so we could have been better off financially? Things like these start to run through my mind and I used to let them just take over and really get to me.
But now, I just let those thoughts go right out, because I know I have been the best mom I can be for them. I don’t let myself get tangled up in the “am I a prefect mom” question because no I’m not. No one is! We may perceive other moms as prefect and they feel the same about us! We need to stop beating ourselves up and realize, being a mom is amazing and we all do it differently and that’s ok!!
Love on those babies while you can! It goes faster than anyone can imagine! ❤️